No, really, I had a panic attack. After a couple of years of not having a major one, here is what I learned. The first thing that struck me about this particular panic attack was the ferocity - I mean this thing was big. Like a tsunami wave looming over me, I could feel it coming. But, despite it's rapid onset, I never had the feeling that I would die or go crazy. In the past death and insanity were the two main things I was waiting for. In this case, I was just waiting for it to die down and that took about ten minutes. In a  strange way